I Told Myself...

I told myself I'd tell the truth on here. I wouldn't make it flowery and pretty with polka dots and swirls. I need to tell the truth.

This is a hard job. It's not hard like "I can't handle it", but it's hard like "holy cow, I'm exhausted."

There are days that are wonderful. There are days that are so difficult I just want to sit down and cry... and sometimes I actually do... once I get home, of course.
I have days when my kids are awesome and my instruction is right-on and my assessments actually assess what they know and challenge them to push their limits. I have days when that's not the case.
I suppose every job has ups and downs. Every job has good days and bad days.
I love my kids. I love them so much and I want the best for them. It is hard to give them the best when I am so worn out at the end of the day... but, my new motto is, "I can do it. I am doing it. I will do it. I can make this work. I do not have to be everything to everyone. The people who mean the most should get the most."
I have found I am wearing myself out trying to please too many people and do too many things. My number one priority at work is my kids. It always has been, but I have problems saying no to other things. Learn that word, Mrs Teacher, learn the word "no." Use the word. It is ok. It is ok to say no.

Note to Self

This job is much harder than you thought it would be.



But it is worth it.

Lesson Learned

I said to my students the other day, "yall, all this talking is making me want to pull my hair out." Today as they are running their mouths and I am about to start a new lesson I hear one child say to her group, "you better be quiet before Mrs. (insert my name here) pulls all her hair out!" lolol I need to watch my mouth.